I am living in the center of chaos. Clothes are hanging off the brink of my mind. Papers are strewn all over the place – and I am quite certain the wind just blew one in my face.
I feel like I am stuck in a desolate landfill of all the stuff I have consumed over the last 4 years – stuff I don’t really need. Stuff that holds me back in a way, from being free. It tethers me to the demand that I find – home (big home, even). It demands I – arrive somewhere. It pushes me. I glare at it.
I guess I want to be free. Free to find home with no reservations required – as the Spirit leads.
To be delivered to the Promised Land of peace, friends and love – unrestrained.
I haven’t gotten there yet. That stinkin’ place? It eludes me.
What place do you want to be delivered to?
What home of peace, answers, calm, relational bliss or finances are you pining for?
I sat down, in the center of it all, everything I wanted to escape – and placed my face in my hands. I looked at all the things I couldn’t handle, I considered all I couldn’t bring about and I realized there was nothing left to do. Anxiety can nearly kill a woman, you know.
The pressure to do, the stern inner dictates and the will to take care of all the baby birds, it’s enough to induce panic.
“God, save me from my self. Show me your ways.”
Every prayed that prayer?
It works. He answers.
It takes the traveler, the one stuck to eternal roaming with bags too large and heavy for her own britches and sends her on her way. She moves from jet-lagged and famished, walking around, searching (otherwise called living-hell) – and heads home.
She gets somewhere.
Something rises up.
It sounds like this: “Whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying, “This is the way; walk in it.” (Is. 30:21)
Bags unloaded, it is a resting spot. Where, bags down, you lay and look up. It doesn’t matter what anyone else thinks. It doesn’t matter what time your flight is to destination delightful. It doesn’t matter how you go about making it there. It just matters that God is going to be faithful.
When you see God and you see his way – it doesn’t matter so much about – your way.
A voice rises above the mayhem. It is not about being delivered from what plagues you, but being delivered to – who calms you.
I missed all that.
The truth is:
Jesus wants to be with me – wherever I stand.
Jesus has a way for me – wherever I am.
Jesus has planned life for me- in whatever I do.
Jesus has truth laid out for me – wherever I go.
I don’t have to fret the when – for Jesus already figured out – the how.
He’s never one to let me fail – and every time his love prevails.
The world may spin, but the cross is steady; it is planted in the solid rock of truth. Truth walks me to life. Life is knowing, God will lift my foot up and put it where it needs to go. He will manage my wavering opinions, doubts and fears.
Do you believe he will do that for you?
In their hearts humans plan their course, but the LORD establishes their steps. Prov. 16:9
I lean back. My lungs fill. We don’t have to control chaos, peace knows the way. And out of the chaos, we get what we were always after – home – his waiting love.
The question is, will we, like prodigal children, return to it?
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Living in the center of chaos? Oh boy can I relate. In just 10 days I get on a plane with my family to return to the MidEast after 9 months in Dallas, so some areas of my house look just like your first picture on this post! (Packing) So thanks, sweet Kelly, for reminding me that I have a calm, steady home and a path marked out for me wherever I am. Because of JESUS.
(Loved hearing you on Compel last month! Great job!)
Betsy, I’ve been putting bits and pieces of this news together from reading, but glad to know the details. I’ll be praying especially for you and the family as you make this huge adjustment. May 20th, right?
Prayers, Betsy! <3
YES! You know Betsy!
Amen friend. I hear your heart song in this beautiful lyrics you have written.
May we find resting points for our weary souls and see God’s path to walk in especially when it seems we have lost our way. May we hear Him speak to our hearts more louldly than our own voices, needs and selfish desires …..in Jesus Name.
God bless you, Kelly
As always you fill our hearts with devotions that help us lean on Jesus and sit quiet at His feet.
Thank you, as always, Ifeoma.
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I know God controls the chaos even though somedays I try my best to do it on my own. God is in the mess, the laughter, the places that hold us back and our everyday. When I remember that I am much better off. My days go smoother and I am more focused. Thank you for your words Kelly. Blessings!
I know Mary, when we try to control it, we normally figure that out pretty quickly, don’t we?
Kelly, you are spot on with my heart today — I continually need to be rescued from my attachment to my own way and set purposefully onto God’s path and plan.
Me too! God, lead us in your ways!
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My mind has been a bit of chaos recently, so this relates. And the anxiety? Well, yeah, it must go. C’mon peace! Your post is honest and encouraging, as always, Kelly. And yes, I think He desires to be right there alongside as we wash dishes, fold laundry, write a few words, and more. Amen.
I love how he just wants to be with us; it is so special Kristi. Thank you for celebrating Jesus with me today.
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Kelly, I can relate. I’m feeling a bit overwhelmed with life and stuff myself. And I’m tired which makes things appear bigger than they are. I’m praying for His continual peace for you in the midst of your chaos. He is always faithful no matter what, isn’t He?
Me too. Thank you God for your peace.
Yeah…chaos abounds here too. Who knew life was busier and more chaotic with teens and older children than it is with littles? But, like you said, He knows. And so I follow. ((grace upon grace))
It always seems to spin, right?!
“We don’t have to control the chaos, peace knows the way.” Amen, friend.
Much love Katie.
Love this, Kelly! God just keeps saying this message over and over today, I am in awe of Him. Praying for you too, my friend! God is good!
Thank you! I love how he speaks again and again.
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The world may spin, but the cross is steady; it is planted in the solid rock of truth. Amen!
We are held – tight!
Feeling a bit like Dorothy in the midst of the tornado, when all we need to do is rest in our Savior’s arms. Sounds so simple, and yet we all struggle with this letting go and letting God. Encouraging reminder today, my friend, thank you!
Right?! I so get you! Thank you June.
I can very much relate to this. So thankful God show’s us His way. Thanks for sharing this reminder and for hosting! Hope you have a wonderful week 🙂
He is leading us, may we go with him, Kelly!
I love this reminder of how we can always be delivered into our Savior’s loving arms regardless of what whirls around us. Praying peace and joy for you and yours today 🙂 Thanks for hosting 🙂
Amen. He has us and I am so thankful for that.
Oh, this is beautiful. It’s like home is where God is. He makes us comfortable and delivers us.
“Your world may spin, but this cross is steady.”
Now, that’s a sticky statement you can hang your hat on! <3 this 🙂
Thank you God!
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