She infuriated me. The one I called friend was acting much like foe. She was acting selfish, wrong and mean.
How could you? I thought you cared about me. How did I ever get tricked?
Somehow, I had convinced myself that we were in this thing called life together; yet, her actions silently hand-motioned otherwise. She knew what she was doing. And, she did it anyway.
All I could think, at this point was, I need to boot her out of my life, she can’t be trusted, she is not who I thought she was.
I needed to protect myself. You can’t be friends with women walking with scalpels, can you?
Oh, I say that often, because He catches me in my tracks.
But God…he says, love your frenemies: “But love your (fr)enemies, do good to them, and lend to them without expecting to get anything back. Then your reward will be great, and you will be children of the Most High, because he is kind to the ungrateful and wicked.” (Luke 6:35)
What frenemy do you need to love?
God inspires me to think a new way towards the offender. I pray I can see the new thought process through.
Take a look:
New thought: That injurer is likely just as injured as I.
My prayer: God, give me strength to love ____ & their weakness. Amen.
New thought: They have their reasons too; I can’t judge their heart.
My prayer: God help me to see their side in the process of all this…
New thought: I need no expectations of man because Jesus met all my expectations on the cross.
My prayer: God, may I truly believe you are – enough.
And, while I might not be ready to talk to her; I am ready to grab God’s hand and start processing it all. Sometimes, just taking this small step towards forgiveness is half the battle.
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