I feel convicted. It is easy to read God’s word and to say, “Yep, that thing right there is what I need to do…”. Yet it is quite another thing to do it. It is easy to develop a three-step plan for improvement, but it is hard to see it through. It is easy to remind yourself of all the ways you really need to change. And then to never find change.
At home, as a mom, I’ve recognized 3 things that need to change:
1. I give in to my children when they ask repeatedly for something.
2. I desperately avoid paths of resistance to keep everyone happy.
3. I have a hard time setting boundaries because I feel guilty.
Friends, I guess I feel a little angry at myself that I haven’t changed these things already. That I haven’t recognized them and reworked them. That I still struggle. That I cause issues at home sometimes. That I can’t stand it when people feel unhappy or angry at me.
I know I am wrong; I am a pushover. I am disappointed in myself.
Maybe you feel like me; disappointed in how you are, what you are doing or where you are today. Maybe you’ve told yourself you’re going to stop cussing, start praying or you’re 100% going to speak nicely now. Or that you’re going to get yourself to where you want to go.
Are we justified to feel this way? To “get our self where we want to go”? To “work up” some sort of inner-heart conversion?
Only God can change a heart.
“I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you; I will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh. And I will put my Spirit in you and move you to follow my decrees and be careful to keep my laws.” (Ezekiel 36: 26-27)
– God gives us a new heart.
– By his work, he removes the stone.
– The Spirit, in us, moves us to follow God’s decrees and laws.
Only by a work of God can we work-out any real and lasting life change.
Unless the Lord builds the house, those who build it labor in vain. Ps. 127:1
So where does this leave us? In prayer and with faith.
God will complete the good work He has begun in us. (Phil. 1:6) We no longer need to be angry at ourselves but 100% trustworthy in the Saviors saving work, that is at work within us.
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Be encouraged. Love this post. Very encouraging!
I’m encouraged by your post because I too get so frustrated with myself that I’m not gaining momentum and maturity at the rate of speed I want (I’m always in a hurry) . I even get scared and question if I’m saved because of my lack of maturity and growth, but I’m beginning to realize God’s not in as much of a hurry as I am and that he’s much more interested in my relationship with him than in my agenda and progress to maturity (because I realize it’s a pride issue). It will come as I spend time with him and let him expose sin in my life and gives me the chance to humble myself, confess and repent; then he will change me, instead of me thinking that I just need to buckle down and try harder and do it myself. Oh the terrible and sneaky face of pride. I’m so thankful for God’s loving patience and faithful dedication to me and in him taking the lead in our relationship with each other. He truly is the leader, husband, and shepherd in my life as a single woman and former single mom; even when I’m such a difficult follower, wife, and sheep of his. All I can say is, forgive me and thank you Lord Jesus!
Hi. Hope my long comment went thru. Was so encouraged by your post.
I hate that, don’t you? Children see that they can get their way., and it’s bad when they get older. Much harder to handle.