I love Rachel Macy Stafford. I’m her fan – a fan of her heart, a fan of her work and a fan of her authentic pursuit of life. She knows all this. But, what she doesn’t know is, I often, desperately need her words. Some days are just too hard – and then I get hard on myself. Some days are just too overwhelming and I lose control. Some days are a punch in the gut; her words bring me back to life. They revive me. This is what her new book, “ONLY LOVE TODAY” is – it is fresh air, new hope and an opportunity to try again. I can’t rave about it – or her – enough. I am a fan.
Here is Rachel’s Story (Comment and share this post on social media to win her new book, ONLY LOVE TODAY):
“Owning our story and loving ourselves through that process
is the bravest thing that we will ever do.” – Brené Brown
It been almost two years since my friend lost her sister to cancer. She still talks about it—the pain and disbelief, the pressure to move on, the things that help and the things that don’t. She talks about the good days and the nearly indescribably bad days.
I listen to everything she offers. I tuck it away for safekeeping. With my friend’s help, I’ll know a better thing to say when someone hurts. With her help, I have some perspective on inconsequential problems when they’re getting more attention than they deserve.
Each time my friend shares her struggles, triumphs, and truths, I am struck with admiration and awe. She never wanted to be an expert on grief, but she is. She never wanted to know what words and actions bring a moment of solace to an aching soul, but she does. This is now my friend’s story, and as much as she’d like to deny it, she’s chosen to own it—quite bravely and brilliantly, I might add.
I thought of my friend and her unchosen expertise when I had a CT scan shortly after her sister’s passing. It was the first time I laid beneath a big scary machine and held my breath for dear life. When the machine began to inch forward slowly, I thought of my friend and her story. I wasn’t sure how my story was going to play out, but I decided I would own it. Tell my close friends. Say, “I’m scared,” when I felt scared. Ask for help when I was in pain. Above all, I knew it was important to pay attention. So I vowed to take it all in—the good and bad. Perhaps I’d discover something worth sharing in the process.
Four weeks after the CT scan that saved my left kidney and possibly my life, I was home from the hospital. I was swollen and sore. I was groggy on pain meds. I was having trouble thinking of words. I was kind of a mess, but I had something I felt must be said. I pulled my laptop computer gingerly onto my lap and typed some words to my friends and family on social media. I remember worrying for a brief moment if there were incomplete sentences, misspelled words, and extra periods. Words were blurry through my grateful, teary eyes, but I pushed ‘publish’ anyway. Here is an excerpt:
“I am home from the hospital recovering from kidney surgery and feeling incredibly thankful to be here. It’s been many months of infection and uncertainty, but I finally have peace. I am on my way to more years, more love, more life. My little public service announcement in the midst of this overwhelming gratitude is this: If you feel like something is not right in your body or mind, please don’t dismiss that feeling. Make an appointment today. If you are not satisfied with the answers you get or things do not improve, keep searching. Keep asking. Keep listening. Keep going until you get answers. You are the only one who can truly look after you. And your people need you to be here.”
An interesting thing happened. Two of my neighbors contacted me over the next few weeks to tell me those words prompted them to action. One of them made an appointment regarding a persistent pain she’d neglected to look into. Another friend said she’d been worried about her spouse’s health and my words were the perfect words to offer him.
I cried.
Through my life’s mess, I provided a vital message.
Thank you, God.
In that moment, I felt better than I had in months. The uncertainty and pain I’d endured weren’t all for naught. For the first time, I saw my story not a curse, but as a blessing. It was a blessing to be the messenger.
Perhaps you sit here today in a mess you haven’t shared yet. Maybe you thought it had to be all figured out before you told someone. Maybe you thought it had to have a happy ending before it could all be revealed. Maybe you thought you had to have perfect punctuation and periods in all the right places for it to be seen. I hope I can help you see your life’s mess in a new way. This is what came out in a tiny notebook during my first walk outside after having two surgeries in one month. Perhaps there’s something here for you …
Owning Your Story
You never wanted to know how to survive divorce.
You never wanted to know the joys and heartaches of autism.
You never wanted to know the signs of addiction.
But you do.
You never wanted to know rock bottom.
You never wanted to know how to leave an abusive relationship.
You never wanted to know it was possible to bounce back after a financial crisis.
But you do.
You never wanted to know the pain of caring for a parent who doesn’t remember you.
You never wanted to be the strong one.
You never wanted to know the car could be a safe place to cry.
But you do.
You never wanted to know a family could break.
You never wanted to know how to put the pieces back together in a new way.
You never wanted to know a new normal.
But you do.
You never wanted to know the perfect response when someone stares at your child.
You never wanted to know the courage it takes to ask for help.
You never wanted to know how to find joy after having lost it for so long.
But you do.
You never wanted to know when it’s time to sever the ties in order to have inner peace.
You never wanted to know how hard it is to say yourself, “Change begins today. My loved ones deserve better.”
You never wanted to know the weight that can be lifted when you say to yourself, “It wasn’t my fault.”
But you do. You do.
And perhaps as time has passed you’ve discovered that to deny your story hurts more than the story itself, so you’ve chosen to own it.
To speak out, even when your voice shakes.
To tell the truth, even when it’s not pretty.
To encourage someone else, even when you can barely encourage yourself.
To get up and face the world, even when you can barely look at yourself in the mirror.
The tears that streak your face at the most inopportune times of the day, at the most inappropriate moments, are the lines of your story. And each time you own it, someone else is not alone in hers or his. Your jumbled mess, whether whispered as a prayer to one or shouted courageously to a room of hundreds, could be the message someone needs right now. Perhaps by sharing our story, pain will ease and hope will find its voice.
You there in your mess: Thank you for being. Your life is a message. And through your story, there is power to save.
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ONLY LOVE TODAY began as a mantra to overcome her inner bully, but it is now the practice of Rachel Macy Stafford’s life. It can be yours too.
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Beautifully written. This os where I stand, where I’ve chosen to stand ever since my husband was diagnosed with cancer and graduated to heaven three weeks later June 2016.
It warms my heart to know there are others out there embracing their story. Our testimonies bring healing, not only to ourselves, but they give others permission to pop their self-induced pain bubbles.
Thank you for sharing. I would love to read part of your blog to a group I’ll be speaking to about writing, if I have your permission.
Christina Rich
Oh, this would be the perfect book for my daughter! She knows the fear of laying in that MRI machine, uncertain of her future, but praying for answers. She has been dealing with kidney issues for several months now, and still waiting on Dr’s to decide what her diagnosis is, and how her life may be affected. She is the mother of 4 beautiful daughters, but her day to day life is consumed in dealing with pain, bruising just by touch, and unanswered questions regarding her health. But she battles through it all, relying on Jesus, and determined to be the best mommy she can to her precious girls!
Rachel, what a blessing to hear your story — and THEN to learn the important truth that God will work through the messiness of our stories to change the lives of others! Blessings to you — and Kelly, thanks for sharing this today!
Thank you so much, dear Michele!
So many things in my life I never wanted to know. But I have chosen to own my story because God has made me stronger through my trials. And he will use my brokenness to bless others. This looks like a beautiful book and I would be honored to win.
I never imagined I would be an expert in the hard things I’ve faced in the last three years. Thanks for reminding me my life and my story are my message.
Rachel, this sounds like a wonderfully encouraging book. May it touch many lives! And thanks, Kelly, for hosting.
Thank you, sweet Donna!
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This post brought tears to my eyes. It was beautifully written. When I first felt the call to write it didn’t make sense because I didn’t have a beautiful rosy ending and I had obstacles to overcome like the privacy of others.
Then I realized my story is the mess, the perseverance, finding hope in the midst of all of the unexpected of life. So I began to write bits and pieces of my story of what it is like to be love a child with mental illness.
Thank you, this was a great post to encourage me to keep persevering.
Blessings,
Maree
Kelly and Rachel, Thank you for sharing this! It is a powerful story with such a message. God uses everything. And when He uses our messes to help and bless others…..There just isn’t words for that.
So beautifully written. I am encouraged and empowered to embrace the story God writes in my life–the good, the bad, the joyful, and the hard.
Just beautiful. This book is sure to be an encouragement to many. It encouraged me this morning. Thank you for sharing!
I love to hear this, Joanne! Thank you!
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What a precious acknowledgement- though there is suffering we bring on ourselves, there’s a lot we don’t. A lot we never wanted to know. But we do turns my heart right back to “But God” : ) He knew we would, and He knows what we need. Thanks for sharing this story and baout this unique book today : )
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Thank You! That Brene Brown quote is one of my favorites and is my life motto now. It took me a really long time to tell my story. But now I cannot not tell my story…it is part of who I am. And owning my story means saying, “I am the daughter of a woman who lives daily with a mental illness.” Because of Brene’s words, I self-published my 2014 Write 31 Days series into a book “Living as a Daughter:31 Days of Mental Illness.”
Thanks for sharing and giving us this opportunity to win what looks like a wonderful book.shared on fb
Crying reading this today. So, so, very beautiful. This book and you ladies are a gift to my soul! <3
I, like you believe it is necessary to tell your story. Because when you don’t you deny someone of seeing God’s glory through you.
Rachel, thank you for sharing this, and the reminder of how important it is to own our stories. Your words touched me. As I learn how to live more authentically, I’m seeing the beauty God creates as a result of being real. Thank you for the reminder that our stories matter.
Thank you so much for posting this. I have worked hard at having the courage to share my story, with all its messiness, and it helps me to see others doing the same.
I am a hot mess. Been so for longer than I ever planned to be and becoming an expert at it! Thank you for the words the give me permission to accept it and perserve through it all!
My life is a mess . I am trusting God to help me right where i am.
Beautiful, strong and true words. Thank you Rachel x
Oh, how my heart needed this.
Love this.
Beautiful! Such great encouragement that God can use these messy, difficult times for His glory!
I didn’t comment the first read-through. I am a lot like the girl who hides away so I don’t have to deal with things. I never realized how much like Jonah I could be. I mean, I am a prayer-warrior who comes with God’s Word blazing out as fast as I can remember it, but for many things I like the access of retreat. And I don’t always want to wear the ministry I have been made to fit into. I needed this subtle push today…and a reminder that saying yes to God will always result in redemption.
Blessings!
Dawn
This reminder arrived at just the right time for me tonight. I identify with so many of the things about being messy hat I thought I did not need or want to know how to endure.
A wise colleagues of mine once shared that maybe she went through her pain for the small yet deeply healing moments of sharing her experiences to normalise another person’s suffering. Thank you!
These are words I needed to hear today! Thank you!
This is a good reminder that by sharing our battles, we can help others avoid going though the same ordeal. I hope I’ve read this post six months ago. Maybe I could have encouraged my husband to have his heart and blood pressure checked.
And yes, I never wanted to be the strong one. I never wanted to know how it feels to be separated with our kids. I never wanted to know how it feels to wait for my husband to wake up from vegetative state. But I do.
My friend. I am praying for you. I can feel how difficult this must be. My heart extends towards you today.
Thank you.