I gave my whole heart to this project I was invited into… I thought about it in the morning, sent text messages at noon, and prayed at night. I was going to –come hell or highwater — be. faithful. to. this. mission.
Yet, something was wrong. Way wrong. Despite my best attempt to see things through, I couldn’t lie to myself any longer. Pressing questions remained, like: Why are they engaging so little and pushing off meeting? Where is their enthusiasm and feedback? Why do I feel a door shut in my face when I have something to say? Why am I continually (and, seemingly foolishly), pressing in while they are pulling back?
In love, I kept pressing in (because I thought this is what God wanted): Be faithful, Kelly, the bible says to be faithful. So, I pushed harder.
Yet, there comes a day when the message of rejection finally breaks through to a soul — and spells out clearly: This is God’s redirection.
The grace isn’t there any longer. You’re throwing pearls to swine. The Pharisees have closed their hearts. Your prayers are hitting a brick wall. Or, bottom line — it’s none of these things — God just wants to do a new thing…
At this point, you may know: you can’t carry on to the new thing, tied up to this old rag-savaged thing. Old hurts don’t perceive new things. It’s time to let go…
It doesn’t mean what was old doesn’t still have beauty or the people aren’t still lovely. I love them a lot. It just means He wants to do something new.
“See, I am doing a new thing!
Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?
I am making a way in the wilderness
and streams in the wasteland.” (Is. 43:19)
We may not always know what the new thing is, but He does. New steps often require a step of faith. That’s ok. All we need to know is that He knows. More important than us knowing is positioning ourselves for HIs coming will.
I won’t say it is easy. I won’t say it doesn’t hurt. Rejection hurts. But rejection is both God’s redirection and HIs compassion, so we don’t keep scraping our knee on that same old sharp edge.
With all this said, my dear friends, I am adjusting course and changing the direction of my sail, my friends. I am not a panderer, a flatterer, a greedy and needy pauper, one who is begging for a scrap. No. I am a daughter of The King who does His will, big or small. And, I surrender afresh and walk in His ways.
You can do the same too!
It doesn’t mean I don’t I love them, because I do. It just means that God has more grace elsewhere. I move to that place. I come to terms with this reality. I come to peace with it. This is hard, but critically necessary.
What do you need to come to terms with?
” [What, what would have become of me] had I not believed that I would see the Lord’s goodness in the land of the living!
Wait and hope for and expect the Lord; be brave and of good courage and let your heart be stout and enduring. Yes, wait for and hope for and expect the Lord.” (Ps. 27:13-14)
Prayer: Father, help us to let go of the shores we are determined to hold on to, because only then, on your wide-open waters, will we sail. May your hand help us and winds meet us as we trust you entirely. In Jesus’ Name. Amen.
Update:
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