I have something to admit. . .
Whenever I get an email in reply to one of my blog posts, I brace myself. Before I even open it, a sense of dread settles over me. I anticipate words that will make my heart hurt.
Oh no, I must have said something wrong.
I wasn’t helpful.
I got cited the wrong verse.
They found an issue with my perspective.
It is a completely unwarranted expectation. The number of people that write words of thanks, encouragement, and life — far, far, far, outweigh other comments. Yet, still. . .
The other day, I opened an email.
“Thanks for the emails you send. Today’s post felt like it was out there just for me. . .”
I stopped in my track. She said it was “out there”. They must have thought I pulled something out of left field. I wonder why it was “out there” to her and how I skewed things so much.
Then, I re-read it. And, as I did, I caught the true meaning of what she meant. She meant it was — out there in her email inbox — just for her.
God hit me. How often do I anticipate the worst and then find it because it’s what I feel I deserve?
How often do I see the negative in my children, because I don’t feel like “that great of a mom”? Or, how often do I hear an underlying message behind someone’s words, when they’re not even saying that?
We find what we are looking for.
I don’t want to find what is dark, demoralizing and negative. I want to find God’s goodness and light.
I want to have this attitude: “I remain confident of this: I will see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living.” (Ps. 27:13)
I want to look for God and find Him.
I want to expectantly wait for Him and see Him.
I want to think of Him and rejoice in the blessings of His goodness.
“Yet the Lord longs to be gracious to you; therefore he will rise up to show you compassion. For the Lord is a God of justice. Blessed are all who wait for him!” (Is. 30:18)
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Joining you today, Kelly, in rejoicing in His goodness–and quitting the nervous wait for the “other boot” to drop.
Yes! Let’s look for the gracious love of God in all the things before us!
I sent this very scripture to my husband yesterday as he started a new job. I call that a sacred echo. laurensparks.net
Great timing. Looking for God’s goodness and light.
Oh my! What a great description. A scared echo. <3
I relate to your own experience so much! I’m more than grateful for the love and grace He extends to me.
Peace and grace,
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