It’s a horrible thing to lose something. I hate it when I can’t find my phone. My husband will be waiting in the car, with the kids buckled in behind him, while I have to “run back in” to find it. I always put my phone in the oddest spot: a shelf to the left, under the covers on my bed or on the corner of a bathroom counter.
To be at a loss of a very important thing is super frustrating. Even more frustrating, the powerless feeling that you don’t know how to go about putting things back together again.
For a bit, I felt like I misplaced faith. It wasn’t that I didn’t believe in God or anything like that. It’s just I didn’t really believe He had good stuff for me or that I could trust in His goodness to pull through. After a series of disappointments where I expected Him to show up one way, I guess, I became upset when He showed up a different way.
So, I stopped being as tender to Him. I let a little bit of calloused skin cover my heart. I met with God, but only let Him approach me — so-deep.
Wondering what happened to my wild-belief and strong-faith, where anything is possible. I dove back into Hebrews 11 this morning to see if God wanted to bring something back to life.
“Anyone who wants to come to Him must believe that there is a God…”
Yep. I got that covered. I believe there is a God.
“…and that He rewards those who sincerely seek Him.” (Heb. 11:6)
I “must” believe He rewards me?
To believe God “rewards me” feels indulgent, selfish and it induces guilt in me. Isn’t faith supposed to be about all I give Him – what I do, how I love Him, reading the bible with Him and loving others on His behalf?
Yet, God hones in on this— “Kelly, I want you to believe when you sincerely seek me out — I am going to reward you.”
Faith is not only coming to God, or doing His work, receiving and expecting His reward too. We are not old rag dolls, who God uses to take advantage of to get His way or to use up and then throw out. We are children, daughters, of a Father who loves us and wants to take care of us. His heart, when we meet Him, when we trust Him, when we long for Him, when we find Him — is to reward us. It is to give — to renew, replenish, restore and reinvigorate.
When we seek Him, we’ll find Him and He’ll reward us.
Something about this idea — speaks so deeply to my heart that: God is good.
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Whoa! I have read and heard that text many, many times and God, through you, has opened my spiritual eyes. God has been working on me and my feelings of unworthiness lately. Once again His positive power has come my way through the insights He has give to another, but that I needed as well. Thank you for always being faithful.
Why this was divinely made for me ,since this verse crossed my mind yesterday as I’m going through some challenges right now with being homeless with a 10 year old son,temporarily living with family.This is a sign to just BE STILL and let God daily remind me through his word how to trust and keep seeking him through my situation and remind myself when days are harder than others, he does loves me.
This is great and so helpful for someone like me who tends to not expect anything from anyone. God is not only able, but ready and willing, to reward me!
This is a great post! Very helpful!
Thank you for reminding me that I am still a daughter of God and He’ll always look after me. I’ve made a lot of bad decisions in the past that I’m regretting now to the point that I left my parents’ house and went far away from them, thinking that I could make it. Now, I realize that I can’t, not without any form of communication with them at least, and without the guidance of God. I hope I can find a nearby church where I can attend daily worship sessions.