“Those women seem against me,”I thought. Surely, they don’t want to be friends. Not when they leave me out this way. They couldn’t possibly like me, or be for me, for that matter. And, you all know how the old saying goes, “You are either for me – or against.” I think I knew where they stood.
They even seem to enjoy leaving me out. Worst of all, they don’t even realize how it hurt me.
Isn’t that the worst, when the offense is so blatant? I wanted to know why they got to walk right into their own little Promised Land of joy full of milk and honey, while I was left sucking tainted water? It hurt.
My heart yearned to know.
To seek and pray deeply, is the only way to give a victim mentality,
take a fresh does of Christ reality – that heals…
The taken advantaged one.
The hurt one.
The burnt one.
The one of the past.
The one that was counted out of sports, while the other girls made the team.
The girl who sat on the sidelines, as others jumped on the blacktop.
The one whose work was negated, as others was promoted.
The one who looked ugly, while everyone else looked pretty.
What kind of eye glasses have I been looking from?
What perspective have they been revealing?
Fuzzy ones? Hazy ones?
These glasses are making me look all wrong.
Here’s how you can tell what kind of glasses you see from…
1. Do you see earthly poverty or spiritual abundance?
2. Do you solely live by the pain of the cross or by the hope and freedom of the resurrection?
3. Do you live expecting failure or trusting in God’s victory?
I am seeing it is time for a perspective-shift. Are you?
The truth is, I am not stuck on an island. Jesus is my way, my hope, my rescue, my strong-hold. He shows and leads me to a new place. A place of peace.
The question is – will I go. Will I choose to leave what has defined me – trusting that the living water will help me live anew in him? Or will I remain parched and hungry for all I don’t and never will have (even though it has been entirely granted to me)?
I am ready to go somewhere new.
Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come:
The old has gone, the new is here! 2 Cor. 5:17
Maybe it isn’t so much that I am not new, or that we are not new, but that we haven’t believed in “new.” Perhaps it is a matter of taking off these glasses of old to see a clear view of his new.
Perhaps then, we will see his land of milk and honey verses my land of depravity and negativity. Perhaps then we will “see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living.” (Ps. 27:13)
I want to see what God sees everyday in my land of living.
Isn’t it time to move on? To see fresh?
To a place of milk and honey, where we aren’t abandoned we are resurrected in Christ Jesus.
Walk by still waters and to lay on green pastures (Ps. 23:2) – resting in his ways.
Find shelter under the wing of an eagle (Ps. 91:4) – not trying to fly, but being content to abide.
To peace. To fullness. To life. No matter how people are living or hurting around us. It is ours for the taking; so let’s take it and go – with God!