Here I am Lord.
Will you use me?
I am trying Lord.
Will you help me?
I am hoping Lord.
Will you come through for me?
I am dreaming Lord.
Will you send me?
It is easy to look at our dreams and think they are the answer to our joy.
It is easy to look at another and think they have all we dreamed of – and more.
It is easy to face our rejections and to let them destroy us.
In many ways, we have set up our structures of hope and we have decided how they should be built. We know who needs to be involved, how we will put them together, what will make up the parts to success, but do we miss out in this process of self-promoting and self-reliance?
Does God have more hidden behind that structure
we have erected in our mind that we can’t see?
Might it be waiting, unseen,
because our mind is sprinting in another direction?
I know, for me, I miss out when:
- I start becoming so focused on my blue prints that
I miss the blessing God has sheltered in the “now”.
- I see that girl and decide my structure looks like a shack in a third world country.
- Questions become probing inquiries to steal my goods.
- A request becomes an opportunity for another to use me.
- My accomplishments become the savior of my insecurities.
This is exactly why God speaks this verse: Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit. Rather, in humility value others above yourselves, not looking to your own interests but each of you to the interests of the others. Phil. 2:3-4
God is so smart; sometimes he has to protect me from me.
God seems to know that the greatest gift is not found in me, but it is found in the outpouring of love found in him.
It’s almost like God says,
“Hey, you’re blocking the view of what I really have for you –
the needy hearts in front of you.”
“You will miss them with your eyes focused on your own plans,
your own ways and your own dreams.
If it is my dream, I will make it for you.
You need not stress, but until then, don’t run after ambition,
run after a heart to love.
I fill in all the gaps.”
But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. Mt. 6:33
I am going to listen to the truth of these words. Will you?
There are so many around. So many who need us.
They hurt and wait for someone to see that tear in their eye.
They hurt and hope for an arm to go around their shoulder.
They hurt and dream of a helping hand.
They hurt and they wait for our love.
They hurt and God wants us to meet them.
Much in the same way we hurt – they are hurting too.
What we will see is that, often, we end up needing them more than they ever needed us. God ends up using them to shape us and form us and make us into the vehicle that brings our dreams to life.
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Thanks Kelly for your words. I find myself in that same place most of the time. Tunnle vision, on what I want to happen instead of waiting on Him!
God Bless, Lisa
So thankful that we have a God who “fills in the gaps”. Now if we could just learn to let go of the reins and let Him guide us?! I was raised on the power of self-sufficiency so it’s been a long journey of learning to depend and rely on Him. Thanks for the encouragement this am.!
You have a gift, Kelly!
Never forget or believe the enemy’s lies otherwise. I can’t think of another writer that consistently puts into words exactly what I’m living and feeling!
Yesterday, I was thinking about suffering – perseverance – character – hope. I was so discouraged thinking I’m STILL stuck at step 1 suffering. But I now believe I’m truly at step 3 character.
If I will obey God, surrender to HIS ways and refinement of me, I will find the hope – HIS purpose and hope and lasting joy!!!
Be encouraged! God is using you mightily! ♡
These are my struggles exactly. Thank you for these words of wisdom and encouragement. 🙂